Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Today was definately a down day

So today my son had his first appointment with Kids on the Move (KOTM). The did two different assessments on him to see how he was developing and if he was developing properly. Well the first test they did was a language test to see how many words he knew and could say that could be understood. Well he has a moderate delay in the language portion of development. The second part of the assessment they did was to see how much he understood what was being asked of him. He showed a severe delay in that portion. The next step is for a nurse to come out and check on his health development, and after that they will have a developmental specialist come out and do assessments on all the areas of development to make sure that he is not behind on anything else.
Well, KOTM gave me a handbook to look through and I found some questions that I will have to answer for them to make a list of goals for Michael's treatment if he is accepted into the program. I answered a few of the questions and I wanted to put them on here so that you can get an understanding of how I feel about my son, and where our lives are headed.
The first question I came across was: The things I really love about my son are:
his smile
his laugh
the way his eyes light up when i enter the room
the big hugs I get
Whenever I say, "Chugga, Chugga" he responds with "Choo! Choo!" (hand gestures included)

My child's personality and temperment is best described as:
Easy going
head strong
stubborn
well behaved
overall just good

The biggest challenge my family has right now is:
Michael getting to know his father from a long distance, and Michael communicating what he wants and needs.

I am really proud of my son right now because:
He has been through a lot so far, but he always has a smile on his face, even when he is extremely sick

My son, if you can't tell is all I have in this life, and he is the only thing that will forever be there for me. For those of you who do not know I named my son after my older brother who passed away in 2004. So looking at my son is a double edged sword because he looks a lot like my brother and he also looks a lot like his dad.
I still love his dad and I always will, but time will heal my wounds.

After the KOTM lady left today I sat and pondered everything in the last two years trying to figure out what exactly I did wrong that would make my son have a delay in his development. I talked to my dad about how I felt and he told me that everything was just fine and to not blame myself for anything. There is nothing I can do to change the past and I just need to learn from it.
So my vow is that if I ever have children again, I will do my best to make sure that they are hitting their milestones on time just like they are supposed to and work with them on talking. Since that lady left today I have been working with Michael when he wants something to make him tell me what it is rather than just giving it to him.
If I continue to just give him what he wants without him telling me what he wants then he will not learn to talk and I believe that, that has been one of the biggest mistakes I have made in the last 2 years.
Well, this blog is long enough, and I have to go to bed to get up and look for a job early in the morning! night all

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